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Chapter 42. Deep Calleth Unto Deep |
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_ CHAPTER XLII. DEEP CALLETH UNTO DEEP In the meantime yet worse trouble had come upon the poor Frankses. About a week after they had taken possession of the cellar, little Moxy, the Serpent of the Prairies, who had been weakly ever since his fall down the steps, by which he had hurt his head and been sadly shaken, became seriously ill, and grew worse and worse. For some days they were not much alarmed, for the child had often been ailing--oftener of late since they had not been faring so well; and even when they were they dared not get a doctor to him for fear of being turned out, and having to go to the workhouse. By this time they had contrived to make the cellar a little more comfortable. They managed to get some straw, and with two or three old sacks made a bed for the mother and the baby and Moxy on the packing-case. They got also some pieces of matting, and contrived to put up a screen betwixt it and the rickety door. By the exercise of their art they had gained enough to keep them in food, but never enough to pay for the poorest lodging. They counted themselves, however, better off by much than if they had been crowded with all sorts in such lodging as a little more might have enabled them to procure. The parents loved Moxy more tenderly than either of his brothers, and it was with sore hearts they saw him getting worse. The sickness was a mild smallpox--so mild that they did not recognize it, yet more than Moxy could bear, and he was gradually sinking. When this became clear to the mother, then indeed she felt the hand of God heavy upon her. Religiously brought up, she had through the ordinary troubles of a married life sought help from the God in whom her mother had believed:--we do not worship our fathers and mothers like the Chinese--though I do not envy the man who can scorn them for it--but they are, if at all decent parents, our first mediators with the great father, whom we can worse spare than any baby his mother;--but with every fresh attack of misery, every step further down on the stair of life, she thought she had lost her last remnant of hope, and knew that up to that time she had hoped, while past seasons of failure looked like times of blessed prosperity. No man, however little he may recognize the hope in him, knows what it would be to be altogether hopeless. Now Moxy was about to be taken from them, and no deeper misery seemed, to their imagination, possible! Nothing seemed left them--not even the desire of deliverance. How little hope there is in the commoner phases of religion! The message grounded on the uprising of the crucified man, has as yet yielded but little victory over the sorrows of the grave, but small anticipation of the world to come; not a little hope of deliverance from a hell, but scarce a foretaste of a blessed time at hand when the heart shall exult and the flesh be glad. In general there is at best but a sad looking forward to a region scarcely less shadowy and far more dreary than the elysium of the pagan poets. When Christ cometh, shall he find faith in the earth--even among those who think they believe that he is risen indeed? Margaret Franks, in the cellar of her poverty, the grave yawning below it for her Moxy, felt as if there was no heaven at all, only a sky. But a strange necessity was at hand to compel the mother to rouse afresh all the latent hope and faith and prayer that were in her. By an inexplicable insight the child seemed to know that he was dying. For, one morning, after having tossed about all the night long, he suddenly cried out in tone most pitiful, "Mother, don't put me in a hole." As far as any of them knew, he had never seen a funeral--at least to know what it was--had never heard anything about death or burial: his father had a horror of the subject! The words went like a knife to the heart of the mother. She sat silent, neither able to speak, not knowing what to answer. Again came the pitiful cry, "Mother, don't put me in a hole." Most mothers would have sought to soothe the child, their own hearts breaking the while, with the assurance that no one should put him into any hole, or anywhere he did not want to go. But this mother could not lie in the face of death, nor had it ever occurred to her that no _person_ is ever put into a hole, though many a body. Before she could answer, a third time came the cry, this time in despairing though suppressed agony,-- "Mother, don't let them put me in a hole." The mother gave a cry like the child's, and her heart within her became like water. "Oh, God!" she gasped, and could say no more. But with the prayer--for what is a prayer but a calling on the name of the Lord?--came to her a little calm, and she was able to speak. She bent over him and kissed his forehead. "My darling Moxy, mother loves you," she said. What that had to do with it she did not ask herself. The child looked up in her face with dim eyes. "Pray to the heavenly father, Moxy," she went on--and there stopped, thinking what she should tell him to ask for. "Tell him," she resumed, "that you don't want to be put in a hole, and tell him that mother does not want you to be put in a hole, for she loves you with all her heart." "Don't put me in the hole," said Moxy, now using the definite article. "Jesus Christ was put in the hole," said the voice of the next elder boy from behind his mother. He had come in softly, and she had neither seen nor heard him. It was Sunday, and he had strolled into a church or meeting-house--does it matter which?--and had heard the wonderful story of hope. It was remarkable though that he had taken it up as he did, for he went on to add, "but he didn't mind it much, and soon got out again." "Ah, yes, Moxy!" said the poor mother, "Jesus died for our sins, and you must ask him to take you up to heaven." But Moxy did not know anything about sins, and just as little about heaven. What he wanted was an assurance that he would not be put in the hole. And the mother, now a little calmer, thought she saw what she ought to say. "It ain't your soul, it's only your body, Moxy, they put in the hole," she said. "I don't want to be put in the hole," Moxy almost screamed. "I don't want my head cut off!" The poor mother was at her wits' end. But here the child fell into a troubled sleep, and for some hours a silence as of the grave filled the dreary cellar. The moment he woke the same cry came from his fevered lips, "Don't put me in the hole," and at intervals, growing longer as he grew weaker, the cry came all the day. _ |
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