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Volume 2 - Chapter 4. The Evening At The Curate's |
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_ VOLUME II CHAPTER IV. THE EVENING AT THE CURATE'S As I led Adela, well wrapped in furs, down the steps to put her into the carriage, I felt by the wind, and saw by the sky, that a snowstorm was at hand. This set my heart beating with delight, for after all I am only what my friends call me--an old boy; and so I am still very fond of snow and wind. Of course this pleasure is often modified by the recollection that it is to most people no pleasure, and to some a source of great suffering. But then I recover myself by thinking, that I did not send for the snow, and that my enjoyment of it will neither increase their pains nor lessen my sympathies. And so I enjoy it again with all my heart. It is partly the sense of being lapt in a mysterious fluctuating depth of exquisite shapes of evanescent matter, falling like a cataract from an unknown airy gulf, where they grow into being and form out of the invisible--well-named by the prophet Job--for a prophet he was in the truest sense, all-seated in his ashes and armed with his potsherd--the womb of the snow; partly the sense of motion and the goings of the wind through the etherial mass; partly the delight that always comes from contest with nature, a contest in which no vile passions are aroused, and no weak enemy goes helpless to the ground. I presume that in a right condition of our nervous nature, instead of our being, as some would tell us, less exposed to the influences of nature, we should in fact be altogether open to them. Our nerves would be a thorough-fare for Nature in all and each of her moods and feelings, stormy or peaceful, sunshiny or sad. The true refuge from the slavery to which this would expose us, the subjection of man to circumstance, is to be found, not in the deadening of the nervous constitution, or in a struggle with the influences themselves, but in the strengthening of the moral and refining of the spiritual nature; so that, as the storms rave through the vault of heaven without breaking its strong arches with their winds, or staining its etherial blue with their rain-clouds, the soul of man should keep clear and steady and great, holding within it its own feelings and even passions, knowing that, let them moan or rave as they will, they cannot touch the nearest verge of the empyrean dome, in whose region they have their birth and being. For me, I felt myself now, just an expectant human snow-storm; and as I sat on the box by the coachman, I rejoiced to greet the first flake, which alighted on the tip of my nose even before we had cleared our own grounds. Before we had got _up street_, the wind had risen, and the snow thickened, till the horses seemed inclined to turn their tails to the hill and the storm together, for the storm came down the hill in their faces. It was soon impossible to see one's hand before one's eyes; and the carriage lamps served only to reveal a chaotic fury of snow-flakes, crossing each other's path at all angles, in the eddies of the wind amongst the houses. The coachman had to keep encouraging his horses to get them to face it at all. The ground was very slippery; and so fast fell the snow, that it had actually begun to ball in the horses' feet before we reached our destination. When we were all safe in Mrs. Armstrong's drawing-room, we sat for a while listening to the wind roaring in the chimney, before any of us spoke. And then I did not join in the conversation, but pleased myself with looking at the room; for next to human faces, I delight in human abodes, which will always, more or less, according to the amount of choice vouchsafed in the occupancy, be like the creatures who dwell in them. Even the soldier-crab must have some likeness to the snail of whose house he takes possession, else he could not live in it at all. The first thing to be done by one who would read a room is, to clear it as soon as possible of the air of the marvellous, the air of the storybook, which pervades every place at the first sight of it. But I am not now going to write a treatise upon this art, for which I have not time to invent a name; but only to give as much of a description of this room as will enable my readers to feel quite at home with us in it, during our evening there. It was a large low room, with two beams across the ceiling at unequal distances. There was only a drugget on the floor, and the window curtains were scanty. But there was a glorious fire on the hearth, and the tea-board was filled with splendid china, as old as the potteries. The chairs, I believe, had been brought from old Mr. Armstrong's lumber-room, and so they all looked as if they could tell stories themselves. At all events they were just the proper chairs to tell stories in, and I could not help regretting that we were not to have any to-night. The rest of the company had arrived before us. A warm corner in an old-fashioned sofa had been prepared for Adela, and as soon as she was settled in it, our hostess proceeded to pour out the tea with a simplicity and grace which showed that she had been just as much a lady when carrying parcels for the dressmaker, and would have been a lady if she had been a housemaid. Such a women are rare in every circle, the best of every kind being rare. It is very disappointing to the imaginative youth when, coming up to London and going into society, he finds that so few of the men and women he meets, come within the charmed circle of his ideal refinement. I said to myself: "I am sure she could write a story if she would. I must have a try for one from her." When tea was over, she looked at her husband, and then went to the piano, and sang the following ballad: "'Child, there's a valley over there, "'And what comes next?' 'A little town; "'And what comes next?' 'A lonely moor, "'And then?' 'Dark rocks and yellow sand, "'And then?' 'Oh! rock and mountain and vale, "'Is that the end? It is weary at best.' "'Built of all colours of lovely stones-- "'I will go.' 'But the steps are very steep: "'For others to put their feet on you,
"Now, Miss Cathcart, it is your turn to sing." "Would you mind singing another of Heine's songs?" said the doctor, as he offered his hand to lead her to the piano. "No," she answered. "I will not sing one of that sort. It was not liked last time. Perhaps what I do sing won't be much better though. "So joy on joy may go sweeping
So spake Harry, and sang: "All day through the streets I wandered, "It was better though, at night-fall, "With echoing, echoing footstep, "I stood still before thy dwelling, "And thou lookedst through thy curtains--
"I don't say they are," returned the doctor; "but many a pain is relieved by finding its expression. I wish he had never written worse." "That is not why I like them," said the curate. "They seem to me to hold the same place in literature that our dreams do in life. If so much of our life is actually spent in dreaming, there must be some place in our literature for what corresponds to dreaming. Even in this region, we cannot step beyond the boundaries of our nature. I delight in reading Lord Bacon now; but one of Jean Paul's dreams will often give me more delight than one of Bacon's best paragraphs. It depends upon the mood. Some dreams like these, in poetry or in sleep, arouse individual states of consciousness altogether different from any of our waking moods, and not to be recalled by any mere effort of the will. All our being, for the moment, has a new and strange colouring. We have another kind of life. I think myself, our life would be much poorer without our dreams; a thousand rainbow tints and combinations would be gone; music and poetry would lose many an indescribable exquisiteness and tenderness. You see I like to take our dreams seriously, as I would even our fun. For I believe that those new mysterious feelings that come to us in sleep, if they be only from dreams of a richer grass and a softer wind than we have known awake, are indications of wells of feeling and delight which have not yet broken out of their hiding-places in our souls, and are only to be suspected from these rings of fairy green that spring up in the high places of our sleep." "I say, Ralph," interrupted Harry, "just repeat that strangest of Heine's ballads, that--" "Oh, no, no; not that one. Mrs. Cathcart would not like it at all." "Yes, please do," said Adela. "Pray don't think of me, gentlemen," said the aunt. "No, I won't," said the curate. "Then I will," said the doctor, with a glance at Adela, which seemed to say--"If you want it, you shall have it, whether they like it or not." He repeated, with just a touch of the recitative in his tone, the following verses: "How long I lay and slumbered, "'Wilt thou not rise, my Henry? "'My love, I cannot raise me; "'But from thine eyes, dear Henry, "'My love, I cannot raise me; "'Oh! I will lay my hand, Henry, "'My love, I cannot raise me; "'With my thick hair, my Henry, "She begged so soft, so dearly, "Then the wounds again burst open;
Mrs. Cathcart smiled, and said: "I should hardly have thought your time well-spent in translating it, Mr. Armstrong." "It took me a few idle minutes only," said the curate. "But my foolish brother, who has a child's fancy for horrid things, took a fancy to that; and so he won't let my sins be forgotten. But I will take away the taste of it with another of Heine's, seeing we have fallen upon him. I should never have dreamed of introducing him here. It was Miss Cathcart's first song that opened the vein, I believe." "I am the guilty person," said Adela; "and I fear I am not sorry for my sins--the consequences have been too pleasant. Do go on, Mr. Armstrong." He repeated: "High in the heavens the sun was glowing; "Sounds of solemn bells that go "Oh, wonder of peach, how still was the town!
"Fanciful," she answered. "I don't like fancies about sacred things." "I fear, however," replied he, "that most of our serious thoughts about sacred things are little better than fancies." "Sing that other of his about the flowers, and I promise you never to mention his name in this company again," said Harry. "Very well, I will, on that condition," answered Ralph. "The flowers are whispering and speaking,
"Yes, that's all," answered the singer. "But we cannot let you off with that only," she said. "What an awful night it is!" interrupted the colonel, rising and going to the window to peep out. "Between me and the lamp, the air looks solid with driving snow." "Sing one of your winter songs, Ralph," said the curate's wife. "This is surely stormy enough for one of your Scotch winters that you are so proud of." Thus adjured, Mr, Armstrong sang: "From icy spears a drop will run-- "And when the bright sad sun is low "And waft about the powdery snow,
"There is truth in that," replied Mr. Armstrong. "I think it is in winter chiefly that we want songs of summer, as the Jews sang--if not the songs of Zion, yet of Zion, in a strange land. Indeed most of our songs are of this sort." "Then sing one of your own summer songs." "No, my dear; I would rather not. I don't altogether like them. Besides, if Harry could sing that _Tryst_ of Schiller's, it would bring back the feeling of the summer better than any brooding over the remembrances of it could do." "Did you translate that too?" I asked. "Yes. As I told you, at one time of my life translating was a constant recreation to me. I have had many half-successes, some of which you have heard. I think this one better." "What is the name of it?" "It is 'Die Erwartung'--_The Waiting_, literally, or _Expectation._ But the Scotch word _Tryst_ (Rendezvous) is a better name for a poem, though English. It is often curious how a literal rendering, even when it gives quite the meaning, will not do, because of the different ranks of the two words in their respective languages." "I have heard you say," said Harry, "that the principles of the translation of lyrics have yet to be explored." "Yes. But what I have just said, applies nearly as much to prose as to the verse.--Sing, Harry. You know it well enough." "Part is in recitative," "So it is. Go on." "To enter into the poem, you must suppose a lover waiting in an arbour for his lady-love. First come two recited lines of expectation; then two more, in quite a different measure, of disappointment; and then a long-lined song of meditation; until expectation is again aroused, to be again disappointed--and so on through the poem. "That was the wicket a-shaking! Put on thy beauty, foliage-vaulted roof, Hush! I hear timid, yet daring Quench thy sunk torch, Hyperion. Night, appear! Hark! distant voices, that lightly Around me wavers an harmonious flow; Hear I not echoing footfalls, Dull is the eye of day that flamed so bright; See I not, there, a white shimmer?-- O longing heart! no more thyself delight And soft as, when, purple and golden,
While every one was silent with the intensity of this outlook, and with the awe of such an uproar of wild things without souls, there came a loud knock at the door, which was close to the window where they stood. Even the old colonel, whose nerves were as hard as piano-wires, started back and cried "God bless me!" The doctor, too, started, and began mechanically to button his coat, but said nothing. Adela gave a little suppressed scream, and ashamed of the weakness, crept away to her sofa-corner. The servant entered, saying that Dr. Armstrong's man wanted to see him. Harry went into the passage, which was just outside the drawing-room, and the company overheard the following conversation, every word. "Well, William?" "There's a man come after you from Cropstone Farm, sir. His missus is took sudden." "What?--It's not the old lady then? It's the young mistress?" "Yes; she's in labour, sir; leastways she was--he's been three hours on the road. I reckon it's all over by this time.--You won't go, sir! It's morally unpossible." "Won't go! It's morally impossible not. You knew I would go.--That's the mare outside." "No, sir. It's Tilter." "Then you did think I wouldn't go! You knew well enough Tilter's no use for a job like this. The mare's my only chance." "I beg your pardon, sir. I did not think you would go." "Home with you, as hard as Tilter can drive--confound him!--And bring the mare instantly. She's had her supper?" "I left her munching, sir." "Don't let her drink. I'll give her a quart of ale at Job Timpson's." "You won't go that way, surely, sir?" "It's the nearest; and the snow can't be very deep yet." "I've brought your boots and breeches, sir." "All right." The man hurried out, and Harry was heard to run up stairs to his brother's room. The friends stared at each other in some perturbation. Presently Harry re-entered, in the articles last mentioned, saying-- "Ralph, have you an old shooting-coat you could lend me?" "I should think so, Harry. I'll fetch you one." Now at length the looks of the circle found some expression in the words of the colonel: "Mr. Armstrong, I am an old soldier, and I trust I know what duty is. The only question is, _Can_ this be done?" "Colonel, no man can tell what can or cannot be done till he tries. I think it can." The colonel held out his hand--his sole reply. The schoolmaster and his wife ventured to expostulate. To them Harry made fun of the danger. Adela had come from the corner to which she had retreated, and joined the group. She laid her hand on Harry's arm, and he saw that she was pale as death. "Don't go," she said. As if to enforce her words, the street-door, which, I suppose, William had not shut properly, burst open with a bang against the wall, and the wind went shrieking through the house, as if in triumph at having forced an entrance. "The woman is in labour," said Harry in reply to Adela, forgetting, in the stern reality both for the poor woman and himself, that girls of Adela's age and social position are not accustomed to hear such facts so plainly expressed, from a man's lips. Adela, however, simply accepted the fact, and replied: "But you will be too late anyhow." "Perhaps just in time," he answered, as his brother entered with a coat over his arm. "Ralph," he went on, with a laugh, "they are trying to persuade me not to go." "It is a tempting of Providence," said Mrs. Bloomfield. "Harry, my boy," said the curate solemnly, "I would rather have you brought home dead to-morrow, than see you sitting by that fire five minutes after your mare comes. But you'll put on a great-coat?" "No, thank you. I shall do much better without one. How comical I shall look in Farmer Prisphig's Sunday clothes! I'm not going to be lost this storm, Mrs. Bloomfield; for I second-see myself at this moment, sitting by the farmer's kitchen fire, in certain habiliments a world too wide for my unshrunk shanks, but doing my best to be worthy of them by the attention I am paying to my supper." Here he stooped to Lizzie and whispered in her ear: "Don't let them make a fuss about my going. There is really no particular danger. And I don't want my patient there frightened and thrown back, you know." Mrs. Armstrong nodded a promise. In a moment more, Harry had changed his coat; for the storm had swept away ceremony at least. Lizzie ran and brought him a glass of wine; but he begged for a glass of milk instead, and was soon supplied; after which he buttoned up his coat, tightened the straps of his spurs, which had been brought slack on his boots, put on one of a thick pair of gloves which he found in his brother's coat, bade them all good night, drew on the other glove, and stood prepared to go. Did he or did he not see Adela's eyes gazing out of her pale face with an expression of admiring apprehension, as she stood bending forward, and looking up at the strong man about to fight the storm, and all ready to meet it? I don't know. I only put it to his conscience. In a moment more, the knock came again--the only sign, for no one could hear the mare's hoofs in the wind and snow. With one glance and one good night, he hurried out. The wind once more, for a brief moment, held an infernal carnival in the house. They crowded to the window--saw a dim form heave up on horseback, and presently vanish. All space lay beyond; but, for them, he was swallowed up by the jaws of the darkness. They knew no more. A flash of pride in his brother shot from Ralph's eyes, as, with restrained excitement, for which he sought some outlet, he walked towards the piano. His wife looked at Ralph with the same light of pride, tempered by thankfulness; for she knew, if he had been sent for, he would have gone all the same as Harry; but then he was not such a horseman as his brother. The fact was, he had neither seat nor hands, though no end of pluck. "He will have to turn back," said the colonel. "He can't reach Cropstone Farm to-night. It lies right across the moor. It is impossible." "Impossible things are always being done," said the curate, "else the world would have been all moor by this time." "The wind is dead against him," said the schoolmaster. "Better in front than in flank," said the colonel. "It won't blow him out of the saddle." Adela had crept back to her corner, where she sat shading her eyes, and listening. I saw that her face was very pale. Lizzie joined her, and began talking to her. I had not much fear for Harry, for I could not believe that his hour was come yet. I had great confidence in him and his mare. And I believed in the God that made Harry and the mare, and the storm too, through which he had sent them to the aid of one who was doing her part to keep his world going. But now Mr. Armstrong had found a vent for his excitement in another of his winter songs, which might be very well for his mood, though it was not altogether suited to that of some of the rest of us. He sang-- In wreaths and mists, the frozen white Come, darkness! rouse the fancy more; And death-like figures, long and white, I saw Adela shudder. Presently she asked her papa whether it was not time to go home. Mrs. Armstrong proposed that she should stay all night; but she evidently wished to go. It would be rather perilous work to drive down the hill with the wind behind, in such a night, but a servant was sent to hasten the carriage notwithstanding. The colonel and Percy and I ran along side of it, ready to render any assistance that might be necessary; and, although we all said we had never been out in such an uproar of the elements, we reached home in safety. As Adela bade us good night in the hall, I certainly felt very uneasy as to the effects of the night's adventures upon her--she looked so pale and wretched. She did not come down to breakfast. But she appeared at lunch, nothing the worse, and in very good spirits. If I did not think that this had something to do with another fact I have come to the knowledge of since, I don't know that the particulars of the evening need have been related so minutely. The other fact was this: that in the grey dawn of the morning, by which time the snow had ceased, though the wind still blew, Adela saw from her window a weary rider and wearier horse pass the house, going up the street. The heads of both were sunk low. You might have thought the poor mare was looking for something she had lost last night in the snow; and perhaps it was not all fatigue with Harry Armstrong. Perhaps he was giving thanks that he had saved two lives instead of losing his own. He was not so absorbed, however, but that he looked up at the house as he passed, and I believe he saw the blind of her window drop back into its place. But how did she come to be looking out just at the moment? If a lady has not slept all night, and has looked out of window ninety-nine times before, it is not very wonderful that at the hundredth time she should see what she was looking for; that is, if the object desired has not been lost in the snow, or drowned in a moorland pit; neither of which had happened to Harry Armstrong. Nor is it unlikely that, after seeing what she has watched for, she will fall too fast asleep to be roused by the breakfast bell. _ |