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_ "_TRIPPED_ again!"
"Who?"
"Brantley."
"Poor fellow! He has a hard time of it. Is he all the way down?"
"I presume so. When he begins to fall, he usually gets to the bottom
of the ladder."
It was true; Brantley had tripped again; and was down. He had been
climbing bravely for three or four years, and was well up the ladder
of prosperity, when in his eagerness to make two rundles of the
ladder at a step instead of one, he missed his footing and fell to
the bottom. My first knowledge of the fact came through the
conversation just recorded. From all I could hear, Brantley's
failure was a serious one. I knew him to be honorable and
conscientious, and to have a great deal of sensitive pride.
A few days afterwards, while passing the pleasant home where
Brantley had been residing, I saw a bill up, giving notice that the
house was for sale. A few days later I met him on the street. He did
not see me. His eyes were on the pavement; he looked pale and
careworn; he walked slowly, and was in deep thought.
"He is of tougher material than most men, if the heart is not all
taken out of him," I said in speaking of him to a mutual friend.
"And he _is_ of tougher material," was answered, "that is, of finer
material. Brantley is not one of your common men."
"Still, there must be something wrong about him. Some defect of
judgment. He is a good climber; but not sure-footed. Or, it may be
that beyond a certain height his head grows dizzy."
"If one gets too eager in any pursuit, he is almost sure to make
false steps. I think Brantley became too eager. The steadily
widening prospect as he went up, up, up, caused his pulses to move
at a quicker rate."
"Too eager, and less scrupulous," I suggested.
"His honor is unstained," said the friend, with some warmth.
"In the degree that a man grows eager in pursuit, he is apt to grow
blind to things collateral, and less concerned about the principles
involved."
"In some cases that may be true, but is hardly probable in the case
of Brantley. I do not believe that he has swerved from integrity in
anything."
"It is my belief," I answered, "that if he had not swerved, he would
not have fallen. I may be wrong, but cannot help the impression."
"Brantley is an honest man. I will maintain that in the face of
every one," was replied.
"Honest as the world regards honesty. But there are higher than
legal standards. What A and B may consider fair, C may regard as
questionable. He has his own standard; and if he falls below that in
his dealings with men, he departs from his integrity."
"I have nothing to say for Brantley under that view of the subject,"
said the friend. "If he has special standards of morality, and does
not live up to them, the matter is between himself and his own
conscience. We, on the outside, are not his judges."
It so happened that I met Brantley a short time afterwards. The
circumstances were favorable, and our interview unreserved. He had
sold his house, and a large part of the handsome furniture it
contained, and was living in a humbler dwelling. I referred to his
changed condition, and spoke of it with regret.
"There is no gratuitous evil," he remarked. "I have long been
satisfied on that head. If we lose on one hand, we gain on another.
And my experience in life leads me to this conclusion, that the loss
is generally in lower things, and the gain in higher."
I looked into his face, yet bearing the marks of recent trial and
suffering, and saw in it the morning dawn.
"Has it been so with you?" I asked.
"Yes; and it has always been so," he answered, without hesitation.
"It is painful to be under the surgeon's knife," he added. "We
shrink back, shivering, at the sight of his instruments. The flesh
is agonized. But when all is over, and the greedy tumor, or wasting
cancer, that was threatening life, is gone, we rejoice and are
glad."
He sighed, and looked sober for a little while, as thought went
back, and memory gave too vivid a realization of what had been, and
then resumed:
"I can see now, that what seemed to me, and is still regarded by
others as a great misfortune, was the best thing that could have
taken place. I have lost, but I have gained; and the gain is greater
than the loss. It has always been so. Out of every trouble or
disaster that has befallen me in life, I have come with a deep
conviction that my feet stumbled because they were turning into
paths that would lead my soul astray. However much I may love myself
and the world, however much I may seek my own, below all and above
all is the conviction that time is fleeting, and life here but as a
span, that if I compass the whole world, and lose my own soul, I
have made a fearful exchange. There are a great many things regarded
by business men as allowable. They are so common in trade, that
scarcely one man in a score questions their morality; so common,
that I have often found myself drifting into their practice, and
abandoning for a time the higher principles in whose guidance there
alone is safety. Misfortune seems to have dogged my steps; but in
this pause of my life--in this state of calmness--I can see that
misfortune is my good; for, not until my feet were turning into ways
that lead to death, did I stumble and fall."
"Are you not too hard in self-judgment?" I said.
"No," he answered. "The case stands just here. You know, I presume,
the immediate cause of my recent failure in business."
"A sudden decline in stocks."
The color deepened on his cheeks.
"Yes; that is the cause. Now, years ago, I settled it clearly with
my own conscience that stock speculation was wrong; that it was only
another name for gambling, in which, instead of rendering service to
the community, your gains were, in nearly all cases, measured by
another's loss. Departing from this just principle of action, I was
tempted to invest a large sum of money in a rising stock, that I was
sure would continue to advance until it reached a point where, in
selling I could realize a net gain of ten thousand dollars. I was
doing well. I was putting by from two to three thousand dollars
every year, and was in a fair way to get rich. But, as money began
to accumulate, I grew more and more eager in its acquirement, and
less concerned about the principles underlying every action, until I
passed into a temporary state of moral blindness. I was less
scrupulous about securing large advantages in trade, and would take
the lion's share, if opportunity offered, without a moment's
hesitation. So, not content with doing well in a safe path, I must
step aside, and try my strength at climbing more rapidly, even
though danger threatened on the left and on the right; even though I
dragged others down in my hot and perilous scramble upwards. I lost
my footing--I stumbled--I fell, crashing down to the very bottom of
the hill, half way up which I had gone so safely ere the greedy
fiend took possession of me."
"And have not been really hurt by the fall," I remarked.
"I have suffered pain--terrible pain; for I am of a sensitive
nature," he replied. "But in the convulsions of agony, nothing but
the outside shell of a false life has been torn away. The real man
is unharmed. And now that the bitter disappointment and sadness that
attend humiliation are over, I can say that my gain is greater than
my loss. I would rather grope in the vale of poverty all my life,
and keep my conscience clean, than stand high up among the mountains
of prosperity with a taint thereon.
"God knows best," he added, after a pause, speaking in a more
subdued tone. "And I recognize the hand of His good providence in
this wreck of my worldly hopes. To gain riches at the sacrifice of
just principles is to gather up dirt and throw away goodly pearls."
"How is it with your family?" I asked. "They must feel the change
severely."
"They did feel it. But the pain is over with them also. Poor weak
human nature! My girls were active and industrious at home, and
diligent at school, while my circumstances were limited. But, as
money grew more plentiful, and I gave them a larger house to live
in, and richer clothes to wear, they wearied of their useful
employments, and neglected their studies. Pride grew apace, and
vanity walked hand in hand with pride. They were less considerate of
one another, and less loving to their parents. If I attempted to
restrain their fondness for dress, or check their extravagance, they
grew sullen, or used unfilial language. Like their father, they
could not bear prosperity. But all is changed now. Misfortune has
restored them to a better state of mind. They emulate each other in
service at home; their minds dwell on useful things; they are tender
of their mother and considerate of their father. Home is a sweeter
place to us all than it has been for a long time."
"And so what the world calls misfortune has proved a blessing."
"Yes. In permitting my feet to stumble; in letting me fall from the
height I had obtained, God dealt with me and mine in infinite love.
We give false names to things. We call that good which only
represents good, which is of the heart and life, and not in external
possessions. He has taken from me the effigy that He may give me the
good itself."
"If all men could find like you," I said, "a sweet kernel at the
centre of misfortune's bitter nut."
"All men may find it if they will," he answered, "for the sweet
kernel is there."
How few find it! Nay, reader, if you say this, your observation is
at fault. God's providences with men are not like blind chances, but
full of wisdom and love. In the darkness of sorrow and adversity a
light shines on the path that was not illumined before. When the sun
of worldly prosperity goes down, a thousand stars are set in the
firmament. In the stillness that follows, God speaks to the soul and
is heard. _
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